Had a great weekend.

So Friday I had another bad day so i told rob when he got home that i was going to the gym....had a good workout....then we got a babysitter and went to the bowling alley and the base club with about 15 other people....we had such a good time. I ended up dancing the "soulja boy" some crazy dance with this black guy...rob tried to dance with him too, but he didnt like it too much....hahahahah.. some fast country song came on and rob took the microphone from the dj and sang the song to everyone....hes fearless.....i wish i was like that.....well i guess normally i dont get out and dance either soooo i was kinda fearless too....maybe it was just a rough week and i had to let loose.....weird b/c i cant dance..and when i do dance its just to the electric slide something like that.....but i was like out there by myself.....it was fun.....im always so worried about what people think about me but i was having fun and didnt care....i was like a wanderer.....im such a nerd..anyway so that was our friday..saturday, we just hung around and later on had our friends Eric and Jamie over and also a guy morgan from robs shop and his wife and their son over. morgans wife hates it here...so our husbands told him we should get together since me and jamie hate it too and we can all be miserable together...hahahahahaha the funny thing is, this place seems like home to me....i actually dont mind it anymore, besides the weather....we have met some great people in these last couple months. when i went back home for the funeral, it didnt seem right...like something was missing...either gary or rob and the kiddies.....sooo anyway....sunday we hung out and cleaned the house. and then had a few people over to the watch the race......we really had a great weekend....i dont know if i am ready to leave yet!!

bad day

ava didnt sleep all night last night :( boooo but she only woke up once and went right back to bed. Had a bad hour today but the hour felt like an eternity. Ava screamed and screamed. I put her down for a minute b/c kaia was quiet. she was in the back bathroom pouring pepto bismal in the shower.....along with the shampoo and conditioner she dumped out too. I got mad and told her not so nicely to get out...ava was still screaming, so i decided to give her a bath...she was great during her bath, she just hangs out. as soon as i took her out and got her clothes on , she started screaming again. sooo kaia was quiet again.....she was now in the front bathroom dumping the handsoap in the sink and also dumping her crayola bath colors in her toilet.....sooo that and ava screaming.......i screamed at the top of my lungs.....gave kaia a little spanking and went outside to smoke.....when i came back in i felt much better and kaia came up to me and said im sorry mommy and didnt wnt to let go of me....then i rocked ava to sleep and she slept for about 4 hours....and kaia was just perfect the rest of the day.......that hour awful but i wouldnt trade being a mommy for the world.....

hellloooooo

Just got back from the gym....sucks getting back into it. But at least im going. I have 4 months til i am back home and i am trying to lose 20 pounds by then....we'll see... we had a nascar party last night to break in the new TV. ofcourse the race was delayed and delayed and delayed then there was a big crash and then it started raining soooooo everyone left around 1 in the morning....im just glad ava slept all night.....it was the 4th night in a row!! i think we have a routine :) Still no luck on the houses in va beach. Even the townhouses are looking a bit ghetto.....boooooooo not too much else going on. I am going to call and make an appt to talk to someone about my crazy anxiety and all that jazz.....fun fun. okay i am going to take a bath with kaia.....peace out

been awhile

Look at that happy baby!! She had her 2 month appointment yesterday...a little late since i had to go back home. Doctor said she is doing great and she is now 12 pounds....last night she slept from 9:00 till 7:00 this morning.....!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAYA hopefully she does it again tonight. she slept in her crib all by herself. But she sleeps on her belly. she hates sleeping on her back. and she doesnt really like sleeping with me anymore. Rob got her sleeping by herself when i was gone. its kinda sad.....kaia is still kaia. crazy kaia. i love her. we keep finding kaia suprises in our bed.....a car the
other night and last night, some legos..its pretty funny..oh yeah we purchased a 50 inch plasma the other day......why???? we watched the bourne identity the other night on the old tv and i said to rob, "man we have a small tv" so the next day we went and bought a big one.....its pretty nice but we are done buying things like that....we shouldbe saving money for a downpayment on a house or maybe college for the girls....its okay we are young and stupid :) speaking of houses.....we arent findin anything nice in va beach....they are all so ghetto and they want about 220,000 dollars for a decent townhouse....yeah townhouse.......boooooo oh well i think we will figure something out.....i know i need a job...and i cant wait to get out of the house....im tired of the same routine every day. Even though there is always something going on with kaia's crazy butt.....i still need to be out of the house, so when i get home i can enjoy the company of my kids....i love them to death.....but yeah.....just time for change... okay im done for now. gotta go grocery shopping.....

gary wayne

having a very hard time grasping what happened. why would you do this when you know there are people here that love you? alot of people. why couldnt you have just called? what if you did? You talked to me about anything and everything. Sometimes told me way too much. this is not the way to go out. I know now that you are with your father and that is where you have wanted to be for a long time now. Just wish you could have stayed with us a little longer. You had alot more life to live. You had so many goals and dreams. life seemed to be going to so great for you these last couple weeks. Apparently not as great as we all thought. i lost my best friend and my big brother. love you gary, you will truly be missed

AVALYNN

AVA ROLLED OVER TODAY!! YAYYYYYYY SHES SO BIG

yeah

I went outside in the backyard this morning to "check for scorpions" and realized that the sun was shining bright and there was no wind. It felt like it was 65 degrees. I got sooo happy. So i put my flip flops on and decided to take the girls for a walk. i got to try out the new double stroller where ava sits in her carseat and kaia can either sit or stand..its a bus but it was pretty cool. We got out front and started our journey. Then we turned the corner and the wind about blew me away. It was sooo cold. my piggies were almost blue. kaia was perfect and left the park when i told her to without much of a fight. When i got home, i checked the thermometer...45 degrees......definately not 65. anyway i think thats really about the only thing that we have done all week....i cant wait till it gets warm so i can get these girls outside where kids belong...poor kaia is just soooo bored in the house. shes too smart to be inside. im till going to the gym about every night. its going good. i can already see some results. its also my time to get away from the kiddos. okay thats about i- pretty boring life huh!